BOTTLED FEELINGS

Love is what you make,
Hearts colliding
Dreams creating illusion of being permanent and,
Lately I’ve been wondering what this love really is?
Is it possible for hearts to just meet and collide?
To meet someone and it’s a just flawless vibe?

My research has been telling me Love is like a chair you want to sit on, the shape of which determines your posture or
Love is more like three crying kids in the back of the car after a bad week at work, when you’ve barely slept for days and you’ve been fighting with your beloved about the same damn thing for the last two weeks, and you have an overwhelming urge to just drop it all and run away because my God this can’t be what the rest of my life will look like!

But you end up coming back home after all.

My comprehension is love means different things at different places, circumstances and situations and maybe, just maybe there’s nothing like bad timing because the heart doesn’t choose when to love and who to love.

Just like any other heart, it’s not like mine has had a choice
See this love, I always say like trust it’s a stalwart word
But I know better what my heart has been feeling, tingly – ticklish feels from his thought and how reluctant he is to give my mind a break,
Thinking of his corky laugh, his sweet words that have grown in me, how he makes me smile without even trying, how my eyes light up from a notification from him,
How love songs feel so soothing to my cochlea these days and what it would feel if it were different.

But somehow I wish this heart had a choice because maybe, just maybe there’s a bad timing to love,
and now I have to keep this feelings bottled like the doodle I made.

Lotsa Love
LYDRAH 🧡 🍂

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What is it about love that makes people stupid?
I didn’t ask that, someone did and now I’m the one asking
Funny world!

Stuck in my thoughts,I can’t think straight
Emotional, uncontrollable, all I know is I want you, I hate this is real
How you got me caught up in my feelings thinking maybe we could be more
Not really in the know what you do to me

I didn’t think this heart of mine was so vulnerable but
Seeing you with her feels like the eleventh hour
That’s when I realize how much I need to feel your breathe close
How much I want to get myself all drunk just to kiss you and maybe blame it on the liquor
Wishes flood in me like I wish it was me and you

You make me so anxious but in a crazy way
I want to get vexed but then I remember I don’t own you
Tell me do I have a right to!
Did I look so broken and fragile where I sat, with my heart of glass?
This is too overwhelming.

I didn’t get to lay on those laps that I so much wanted to put my head on
But she was there, feeling maybe what I was to feel
I’m scared of losing that position I think I own to anyone
So tell me, just tell me she won’t own it!

Did I miss a chance to say I want you to pour your passion into me through that delectable kiss
But I can’t speak this so I’m saying it through this poetry
Does it sound like I’m egocentric, like I’m jealous

Look honey I just want to feel wanted.

HAVE YOU ANY IDEA…

Short and sweet

Have you any idea how much I think of you..
Visions of mine ;of us
How I crave your hands on me
As you surpass my territories

Have you any idea how I yearn for you
To see myself in your brown eyes
How I want to have you to myself
Endlessly I wish to be with you ;
And love you for a lifetime

Have you any hint how you ignite the inner me
How you draw me like a moth to a flame
How you make my dusks brighter
You make me feel alive all over again

Have you any idea what you bring out of me
Each time we are near each other ;
how my heart races, my pulse fastens
How a single glance between us;
keeps me alive for days

I don’t want to ruin what we share already
But this is my heart in a silver platter

SWEET, SWEET OBSESSION :Part 2

Obsession

If it isn’t love then tell me why I have these feelings
Why is it that without a warning the thought of you invades my brain and stays there day and night,
Late night I text you and I’m dying to receive your reply
Too impatient
Crossing fingers you’ll reply really first
Before I’m out like a light
But I can’t dare grab a little shut-eye without having your reply back
Not even a power nap will be easy in this anxious situation
Tell me what one night changed, I’m in the oblivion
I know love when I feel some, when I feel this dizzy and conflicted and torn
When I close my eyes to embrace the silence around me hoping to understand my emotions
I couldn’t be wrong or disoriented
I’m disoriented , yes, I just discerned I am
I thought I couldn’t love any other , I promised my heart not to ever love any other this way
Trying to convince myself it ain’t love but my heart is seeming to outwit my brain

Amnesia

Up all night just thinking of you